I strongly believe in self -care. I didn’t noticed I had an issue with self care until my mentor pointed out that I must also take care of myself in order to care for others effectively. In my field especially, working with high levels of stress, can lead to burn out, very quickly. I felt burned out the first 11 months in my job. I think it was because I didn’t have time to process moving into a new area and picking up a caseload of 80 something clients. I can also be a perfectionist and be stubborn. I am the type of person to say “I’m fine, I can come back to myself later. I continue to practice, saying “no” to commitments that do not benefit restoring my energy , setting boundaries, and seriously taking the time to enjoy “me time.” I stumbled across this article and want to share this with whoever is interested in self care article/books: self care A-Z article
Quick update about my previous post:
CAREER: I had plans of leaving the agency, but I have more thinking to do before I take that risk again. Second, I will be renewing my LMSW next summer coming up 2019! Third, still adjusting to the new changes in our office. I have been doing yoga recently and that has helped with some of my stress. Fourth, I have an outline of being a certified trauma focused CBT child therapist. I’m adding adult trauma in this too (I just have to do some research) and lastly I am trying to get better at my paperwork/caseload (it’s never ending!)
PERSONAL: I still struggle to make friends and be able to be social like I would like to be, but it’s been okay for me. I find myself busy at times and depending on the weather I stay in with my dogs which isn’t always good because they need to let out their energy. I did sign up for a 10 k in October which I will start training for next month. I still have a roommate that helps out paying my loans and will have a second one in July.
That’s my quick update.
I have books that I want to start reading on and keep decluttering my life gradually. GOALSSSS!!
I know, I have neglected my personal blog. I thought I would be able to keep up with work and my personal life. I have been busy which I will open up about it when I am ready to write about it.
In the meantime, I would like to thank my new followers. I received an email in my mailbox notifying of new followers. If you’re like me, I want to make sure I am following people that keep up with their blogs. So I don’t want to neglect my personal writing anymore.
“Write in your blog” is written all over my personal planner but I kept postponing it. Anyways, I have a few minutes to post this update.
It feels good to write my thoughts, be able to come back and reflect on it.
Quick update about my career and personal life:
- I have plans to leave the agency after working here for about 22 months (1 yr and 10 months)
- I am maintaining my licensed master’s degree by doing my continuing credits, renewal is every 2 yrs, so it’s coming up- July 2019 and I have a lot of credits to catch up before leaving. I guess I should be asking questions about transferring credits over to another state*
- New therapist are hired then quit or like out Medical Director is retiring July 2019
- Insurance for Medicaid has changed and this is making me stressed out
- Working on Trauma-Focused CBT certification by the end of this year
- I started doing CBTp intervention or in other words, be one of the main therapist working with psychosis & families, we call it F.E.P (first episode psychosis)
- I stopped working at night, so no more on call emergency crisis, no more screening people at jails or hospitals, that lasted about 3 months
- Continue to keep up with 90 plus clients on my case load
- As I mentioned will be moving to another state, TEXAS, to be exact
- I still struggled to make true friends here
- I am trying to get back into my yoga
- Will be selling or renting -to own my first house
- Got my own car
- Took over 3 female dogs! But will eventually cut back down to one in Sep
- Will be visiting my mother in Mexico in the fall and meeting up with friends
- I am running my first 5k THIS SATURDAY!
- I have a roommate which has helped me pay extra on my graduate loans
Within the past year I can confidently say I am proud of myself for the risks and challenges I’ve taken.
Here is a quick short list of those risks and challenges:
- moving to a new state (over 1000 miles away from home)
- Moving on my own — living on my own in a apartment
- 11 months later deciding to buy a home uncertain of my future because at the time I still wasn’t licenced
- Risked driving alone to places and teaching myself how to drive in the highway
- interact with coworkers in a personal level
- Challenged myself working with borderline personality disorders, work with male clients dealing with anger , work with marriage counseling , work with children processing trauma and their parents, and challenged myself working with non complaint clients — no one in my team wanted to take them bacm because they new their history of being non complaint with therapy
- Challenged myslef to do meditation/yoga/ mindfulness training
- Challenged myself to remind my mother of respecting boundaries (on going)
I also want to mention my strengths gained.
- Building and establishing therapeutic relationship with new and non complaint clients
- Feeling more comfortable doing hospital follow ups
- Not completing paperwork as recommended
- Not meeting 100hrs of face to face therapy
Development & personal goals
- Be certified in children trauma
- Be certified in addictions and substance abuse
- First time psychosis with the youth especially for Spanish speaking families
- Continue to improve my expertise in emergency screening
As you can read I have grown within the last year. I have lost clients literally and also closed cases that made me wonder what happened to them. There has bee changes in terms of our paperwork and changes in the agency- – coworkers leaving. Still heartbroken to say good-bye.
What I take away from this year is admiring my clients stories and acknowledging their strengths and weaknesses. Some people that I work with just need that one person to really listen to them and tell them they are stronger than what they give themselves credit for. I sometimes wish they can write their story for someone else to read that might be dealing with something similar and can help them too. Most clients are not willing to expose the truth.
I also see the need in the community for instance a lack transportation and lack of services. The domestic shelters is poorly managed. There are no services for the Hispanic community either because they do not have insurance or these are no Spanish speaking therapist in the county. There is much work to be done ….
In case you wondering what kind of people I work with….
…. everything you can imagine — I deal with : anger, depression, anxiety, abuse, substance abuse, grief, divorces, people who have attempted self harm, criminals…. I work with all ages — the youngest I have is a 9yr old and oldest client is in their mid 60’s …..
I feel more comfortable doing my work but I still struggle with my sleep and getting work done.
I wonder how much more I will grown within the next year.
Here are 4 goals to meet within the next year:
- Meet 100hrs of face to face clinical hours each month (at least 90% or higher)
- Complete all paperwork within the time frame expexted
- Increase emergency services during office hours and afterhours
- Certify in Family & children trauma cognitive behavior therapy
The first three are required to continue my work at my agency. The last goal I suggested it to my supervisor because it would be useful to have as I build my own expertise.