New me.

I know, I have neglected my personal blog. I thought I would be able to keep up with work and my personal life. I have been busy which I will open up about it when I am ready to write about it.

In the meantime, I would like to thank my new followers. I received an email in my mailbox notifying of new followers. If you’re like me, I want to make sure I am following people that keep up with their blogs. So I don’t want to neglect my personal writing anymore.

“Write in your blog” is written all over my personal planner but I kept postponing it.  Anyways, I have a few minutes to post this update.

It feels good to write my thoughts, be able to come back and reflect on it.

Quick update about my career and personal life:


  •  I have plans to leave the agency after working here for about 22 months (1 yr and 10 months)
  • I am maintaining my licensed master’s degree by doing my continuing credits, renewal is every 2 yrs, so it’s coming up- July 2019 and I have a lot of credits to catch up before leaving. I guess I should be asking questions about transferring credits over to another state*
  • New therapist are hired then quit or like out Medical Director is retiring July 2019
  • Insurance for Medicaid has changed and this is making me stressed out
  • Working on Trauma-Focused CBT certification by the end of this year
  • I started doing CBTp intervention or in other words, be one of the main therapist working with psychosis & families, we call it F.E.P (first episode psychosis)
  • I stopped working at night, so no more on call emergency crisis, no more screening people at jails or hospitals, that lasted about 3 months
  • Continue to keep up with 90 plus clients on my case load


  • As I mentioned will be moving to another state, TEXAS, to be exact
  • I still struggled to make true friends here
  • I am trying to get back into my yoga
  • Will be selling or renting -to own my first house
  • Got my own car
  • Took over 3 female dogs! But will eventually cut back down to one in Sep
  • Will be visiting my mother in Mexico in the fall and meeting up with friends
  • I am running my first 5k THIS SATURDAY!
  • I have a roommate which has helped me pay extra on my graduate loans



Reflecting 1yr of my work & personal growth 

Within the past  year I can confidently say I am proud of myself for the risks and challenges I’ve taken. 

Here is a quick short list of those risks and challenges: 


  •  moving to a new state (over 1000 miles away from home)
  • Moving on my own — living on my own in a apartment 
  • 11 months later deciding to buy a home uncertain of my future because at the time I still wasn’t licenced 
  • Risked driving alone to places and teaching myself how to drive in the highway 

  • Challenges
  • interact with coworkers in a personal level 
  • Challenged myself working with borderline personality disorders,  work with male clients dealing with anger , work with marriage counseling , work with children processing trauma and their parents, and challenged myself working with non complaint clients — no one in my team wanted to take them bacm because they new their history of being non complaint with therapy 
  • Challenged myslef to do meditation/yoga/ mindfulness training 
  • Challenged myself to remind my mother of respecting boundaries (on going)

I also want to mention my strengths gained. 

  • Building and establishing therapeutic relationship with new and non complaint clients 
  • Feeling more comfortable doing hospital follow ups

My struggles….. 

  • Not completing paperwork as recommended 
  • Not meeting 100hrs of face to face therapy 

Development & personal goals

  • Be certified in children trauma
  • Be certified in addictions and substance abuse 
  • First time psychosis with the youth especially for Spanish speaking families 
  • Continue to improve my expertise in emergency screening 

As you can read I have grown within the last year. I have lost clients literally and also closed cases that made me wonder what happened to them. There has bee  changes in terms of our paperwork and changes in the agency- – coworkers leaving.  Still heartbroken to say good-bye.

What I take away from this year is admiring my clients stories and acknowledging their strengths and weaknesses. Some people that I work with just need that one person to really listen to  them and tell them they are stronger than what they give themselves credit for. I sometimes wish they can write their story for someone else to read that might be dealing with something similar and can help them too. Most clients are not willing to expose the truth. 

I also see the need in the community for instance a lack transportation and lack of services. The domestic shelters is poorly managed. There are no services for the Hispanic community either because they do not have insurance or these are no Spanish speaking therapist in the county. There is much work to be done …. 

In case you wondering what  kind of people I work with….

…. everything you can imagine — I deal with : anger,  depression, anxiety, abuse, substance abuse, grief,  divorces,  people who have attempted self harm, criminals…. I work with all ages — the youngest I have is a 9yr old and oldest client is in their mid 60’s ….. 

I feel more comfortable doing my work but I still struggle with my sleep and getting work done. 

I wonder how much more I will grown within the next year.  

Next year goals 2019 

Here are 4 goals to meet within the next year:

  • Meet 100hrs of face to face clinical hours each month  (at least 90% or higher)
  • Complete all paperwork within the time frame expexted 
  • Increase emergency services during office hours and afterhours 
  • Certify in Family & children trauma cognitive behavior therapy 

The first three are required to continue my work at my agency. The last goal I suggested it to my supervisor because it would be useful to have as I build my own expertise. 

Continuing education credits/units

Over the weekend I wanted to get a head start on my continuing education units. I find out that I cannot do much until I get that letter in the mail….so I’ll be waiting until July 21st hopefully they have my most recent address.

Based in the state that I am current living in I am required 48 hrs of continuing education for the next 2 years just to be eligible to renew my licence.

So I did some math.

48 hours in 2 years is about 24 hrs yearly, divide that per month, at least 2hrs of training at least!


3hrs must be professional ethics

20hrs can be online training within the 2 years frame.


48 hrs needed minus 20 hrs online = 28hrs outside of field of practice* (Sort of) lets just call them seminars


I have already set aside webinars that I want to do in the fall so I don’t fall behind with my counting education which we call them for short CEU = continuing education units (in case you read my blog and question what is CEU)


Perhaps when I have my official licence # I will post a schedule of my webinars, this will help me be accountable of what needs to get done.

I’m starting to gradually feel better internally doing yoga and gradually being active again.

This feels like a new book in my life,  it’s not a new chapter. It feels as if I’ve entered in a new kind of privilege and figuring out how to make it worth it for those who are disadvantaged.




Passed My Exam

I will never forget July 7. 2017.

My exam was at 8am, time lotted for 4 hrs.

Scored 100 correct out of 96 questions needed to pass the exam and used 3 hrs time to complete it.  This was not my first time taking it, so you can imagine gettin

g to the testing center and becoming anxious while you wait to get registered.

Two co-workers and the few social workers friends that I left behind in NYC suggested I celebrate. But I won’t celebrate until I have my Clinical Licence. I celebrated

yesterday by

At a nearby lake

doing yoga and mowing my lawn with an awesome electric mower!This has been by far the hardest obstacle in my starting career that I have encountered so far, it took me a year and 2 months to pass. I was stressed, exhausted, and fatigued mentally these past 14 months.

I can finally read, color, paint, return to playing my viola, and other active activities. My next goal is to get my health back in shape, I have been suffering from physical symptoms for quite some time and need to make sure I am healthy in order to start jogging 3 miles or more a day.

Exciting news, yes.  Yet, my career is never ending, I am required to take credit courses yearly to meet licensing standards. And I love it.