Reflecting 1yr of my work & personal growth 

Within the past  year I can confidently say I am proud of myself for the risks and challenges I’ve taken. 

Here is a quick short list of those risks and challenges: 


  •  moving to a new state (over 1000 miles away from home)
  • Moving on my own — living on my own in a apartment 
  • 11 months later deciding to buy a home uncertain of my future because at the time I still wasn’t licenced 
  • Risked driving alone to places and teaching myself how to drive in the highway 

  • Challenges
  • interact with coworkers in a personal level 
  • Challenged myself working with borderline personality disorders,  work with male clients dealing with anger , work with marriage counseling , work with children processing trauma and their parents, and challenged myself working with non complaint clients — no one in my team wanted to take them bacm because they new their history of being non complaint with therapy 
  • Challenged myslef to do meditation/yoga/ mindfulness training 
  • Challenged myself to remind my mother of respecting boundaries (on going)

I also want to mention my strengths gained. 

  • Building and establishing therapeutic relationship with new and non complaint clients 
  • Feeling more comfortable doing hospital follow ups

My struggles….. 

  • Not completing paperwork as recommended 
  • Not meeting 100hrs of face to face therapy 

Development & personal goals

  • Be certified in children trauma
  • Be certified in addictions and substance abuse 
  • First time psychosis with the youth especially for Spanish speaking families 
  • Continue to improve my expertise in emergency screening 

As you can read I have grown within the last year. I have lost clients literally and also closed cases that made me wonder what happened to them. There has bee  changes in terms of our paperwork and changes in the agency- – coworkers leaving.  Still heartbroken to say good-bye.

What I take away from this year is admiring my clients stories and acknowledging their strengths and weaknesses. Some people that I work with just need that one person to really listen to  them and tell them they are stronger than what they give themselves credit for. I sometimes wish they can write their story for someone else to read that might be dealing with something similar and can help them too. Most clients are not willing to expose the truth. 

I also see the need in the community for instance a lack transportation and lack of services. The domestic shelters is poorly managed. There are no services for the Hispanic community either because they do not have insurance or these are no Spanish speaking therapist in the county. There is much work to be done …. 

In case you wondering what  kind of people I work with….

…. everything you can imagine — I deal with : anger,  depression, anxiety, abuse, substance abuse, grief,  divorces,  people who have attempted self harm, criminals…. I work with all ages — the youngest I have is a 9yr old and oldest client is in their mid 60’s ….. 

I feel more comfortable doing my work but I still struggle with my sleep and getting work done. 

I wonder how much more I will grown within the next year.  


Next year goals 2019 

Here are 4 goals to meet within the next year:

  • Meet 100hrs of face to face clinical hours each month  (at least 90% or higher)
  • Complete all paperwork within the time frame expexted 
  • Increase emergency services during office hours and afterhours 
  • Certify in Family & children trauma cognitive behavior therapy 

The first three are required to continue my work at my agency. The last goal I suggested it to my supervisor because it would be useful to have as I build my own expertise. 

Farewell angels…

I want to share with you the loss of another client. 

I will not provide details of course.  I will only express my feelings in processing my grief. 

The first client I lost was before working a year in the field. I cried for this person. I met this person for at least 3 times. The death was Unknown, possibly of an overdose or withdrawal. I still cannot get over the loss. Because of this person, it changed me in the way I ask my questions and ask often about suicidal thoughts or attempts. 

This next person that passed away, was the nicest person ever. I had the pleasure to work with them for a year. It is also uncertain to me what happened. My thoughts are medical reasons. This time I did not cry, I gave myself some quite time and thought about my work with them. 

If I had a super power, it would be to heal humans from pain, and trauma. 

I have learn quickly that I must adjust to situations in order to continue my work.

I know both souls are looking down on me and others. I wonder whats it like over there. I pray for them whenever I am reminded of them. It is admiring that they have allowed me into their world for a moment where I was their listener and allowed them to feel  safe to express their most deepest concerns. I carry it with me as I continue to help my brothers and sisters in suffering. 

May they rest in peace. Farewell beautiful souls, farewell angels.  


When it comes to knowledge and building my personal tools — I can be ambitious. This list is over 33 hrs of online training. Although the board can accept 20 hrs, I will be sure to sort out the important ones that I can use within this year and next years. All of them are relevant. However, my time is limited.  I will start them in Aug. I will plan at least 2 electives every month. Perhaps I will start the first of each month to get them out of the way. 

The end of month of — it can be brutal for me, my work requires me to submit all paperwork , up to date at the end of the month. No one fully understands until you yourself do the work. Budgeting purposes. I totally get.


Elective Duration (Hrs) Date Completed
A Culture-Centered Approach to Recovery  1  
Adolescent Suicide 1.5  
Advanced Strategies Motivational Interviewing 1.5  
Anxiety Disorders Among Older Adults 1  
Attachment Disorders Part 1: Understanding and Defining Attachment and Trauma 1.5  
Attachment Disorders Part 2: Assessment, Diagnosis, and Treatment 1.25  
Barriers to Recovery 1  
Best Practices: Behavior Support and Intervention 1  
Bipolar and Related Disorders 2.5  
Calming Children in Crisis 1  
Crisis Management 1.5  
Crisis Planning with Families 1.25  
Does Your Organization Measure Up: Are You Really Trauma-informed? 1.5  
Domestic and Intimate Partner Violence 1.25  
Internalizing Disorders: A Focus on Anxiety and Related Disorders in Children and Adolescents 1.5  
Introduction to Trauma-Informed Care 1.5  
                                                                             Law, Ethics and Standards of Care in Behavioral Health 2  
Medications Related to Schizophrenia and Other Psychotic Disorders 1  
Posttraumatic Stress Disorder 1.5  
Practical Strategies for Engaging Families and Children 1.5  
                                                                        Professional Ethics for Social Workers 1.25  
Relapse Prevention Treatment Strategies 1.5  
Relapse Prevention: Cultural Issues 1.25  
Solution-Focused Therapy 1.25  
Substance Use in the Family 2  
Suicide Assessment and Treatment 1  
Therapeutic Boundaries 1  
Trauma and Stressor Related Disorders in Children and Adolescents 1.5  
WEBINAR: Implementation of Trauma-Informed Care Systems 1  
What Does Becoming Trauma-Informed Mean for Non-Clinical Staff 1  
Working with the Homeless: An Overview 1.25